Thoughts on Christmas Eve

Taking a small reprieve from the Anonymous Confessions saga, I wanted to take a moment this morning to appreciate or contemplate Christmas Eve. I sit here on my bed watching Miracle on 34th Street – the original black and white version and sipping my peppermint mocha coffee. The house is still fairly quiet. My youngest daughter and daughter-in-law are still sleeping soundly. I’ll be lucky if they roll out of bed before noon. My husband is downstairs watching the second season of The Big Bang Theory on DVD and messing around in the kitchen looking for something to eat. Our 21 pound turkey is enjoying a tepid bath in kitchen sink thawing out for tomorrows feast.

The gifts are all wrapped (or mailed). Some are placed safely under the red and gold sparkling Christmas tree in the family room beside the hearth. Others are hidden until morning just for the fun of it. Despite the fact that my children are now grown, the little things, such as hidden gifts, are still a joy.

I have my arsenal of Christmas movies to keep me company while I work on Illumination, EVE Series, Book 4 today which includes:

~Miracle on 34th Street – the original in black & white
~It’s a Wonderful Life
~A Christmas Story
~Christmas Vacation
~How the Grinch Stole Christmas – with Jim Carrey
~The Family Stone
~The Family Man
~The Holiday
~The Santa Clause – 1, 2, & 3

The holiday season this year is bittersweet for me and I admit I have been struggling greatly to find my Christmas spirit. My son, Keifer is still serving in the Middle East and my middle child, Alyssa (who normally comes home for Christmas) is still out in California. It’s very difficult to be fully joyful when half of my family is missing. Still I try for the sake of my daughter and daughter-in-law…who are struggling greatly with their brother/husband being deployed and sister absent. So, in order to remedy the situation all of us have decided that we will celebrate a small Christmas tomorrow and have our real family Christmas in June or July once Keifer returns home and we are moved to California after my youngest graduates High School in June. It will be wonderful to have all my children together in the same place at the same time. It seems that once children are grown and move forward in their lives it becomes for difficult to wrangle them all together. Therefore, in June/July we will celebrate with a Christmas cook-out complete with presents, a Christmas tree, a feast, grandparents, aunts, uncles, and cousins…the whole shebang!

I have learned over the last several weeks that I am not alone in my struggles to grasp the holiday spirit. Many of my friends and co-workers are doing to the same for their own personal various reasons. Yesterday at work a few of us were discussing the idea of Santa Claus and exactly what his position is. The topic took on a humorous tone as we concluded that Santa is a man guilty of watching children while their awake and asleep, offers them candy if they sit on his lap, and breaks into homes in the middle of the night to eat cookies and drink milk before leaving some trinket behind. Most men would receive ten or fifteen years in the state prison for such behavior. And as much as we, as parents, warn our children against such individuals, when it comes to Santa…we not only reinforce the notion but celebrate it! No wonder are children are confused.

As silly as the conversation was I admit it made me laugh and lifted my spirits. So I will throw on my Bah Humbug Santa hat and try to ignore the hole in my heart that is desperately missing my two absent children. I am looking forward to seeing my daughter and daughter-in-law opening their gifts, eating cookies and candies, and cooking a big Christmas dinner with them tomorrow.

Plus, I want to take a moment and wish all my readers, friends, and family a very Merry Christmas. I wish you all the best this holiday season has to offer and a fabulous New Year filled with great success and spent with those you hold dear! I also want to say Thank You to everyone for your love and support this past year for both of my series. I have been very fortunate to receive emails and messages from readers telling me how much they love my books. I cannot express to you how much your words mean to me. I truly appreciate them and hold your words close to my heart! I could not do this without any of you…So Thank You for allowing me to follow my dreams. I love you all!!

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!!!